I Wished For You, Too

The years have been hard, A dullness, a dark room without any light. Hands always stretching out ahead, chasing, Everything always just out of reach. I thought of you when I needed some colour in the darkness, A flash of hope, of what I might one day find. I always had you in the back … Continue reading I Wished For You, Too

A Bad Routine

Some times things happen at the right time, without any time to prepare. Some times, these things are exactly what is needed... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LRSA4X2RGGc&feature=youtu.be


This is worth seeing - such an amazing journey and it still stays with me, on my mind frequently. Katherine Brooks, ladies and gentlemen. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgE0aWIojbM

RED January

https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/chlomarshall Posters: RED January 1 RED January 2 RED January 3 RED January 4 RED January 5 RED January 6 ( https://redtogether.co.uk/?ctaId=%2Fget-involved%2Fdonate-or-fundraise%2Ftake-on-an-active-challenge%2Frun-for-mind%2Fred-january%2Ftemplate-slices-1%2Fabout-x-event%2F )   https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/chlomarshall

I Survived

"I wake up every morning, get dressed and carry on with the day. Even when I don't feel like it, it's just what you do." - Grandad I was raised strong. I was always a child that held fire in her eyes and I loved it. I challenged people. I questioned life. You get up in … Continue reading I Survived

Sheila Jackson

Maggie O'Neill - Sheila Jackson ( http://www.kiwireport.com/cast-shameless-uk-like-now/ ) In (approximately) 2006 a friend came to me, "Have you seen Shameless? It's brilliant. I love it. There's someone in it who is agoraphobic, like you!" They leant me the DVD's - I watched a couple of episodes... "This is not agoraphobia." "Is this meant to be … Continue reading Sheila Jackson


Moving does not solve all problems - I was aware of this. I had reminded myself of this everytime I saw a film where the protagonist's past followed them into their present. Moving felt like breathing. Almost like for the first time in my whole goddamn life, I could breathe easy. No more elephants sitting … Continue reading Breathe

What Does Depression Feel Like?

It feels like silence It is smiling and laughing It is acting, Pretending. It feels like white noise It is emptiness and self-doubt It is living. There are dishes to be washed, The wash basket is overflowing, The bed is unmade because I have not yet left it. It is realising time is moving on … Continue reading What Does Depression Feel Like?


You came to me as a bairn I reared you with such joy You forgave me my mistakes and loved me through my journey. By my side, you stayed, My shadow, gracious and true. A content gent, you grew to be As the years came to calm me, so they calmed you, too. Bursting to … Continue reading Reaching