Imposter

I am here. 
I moved,
to the big City. 

I am there. 
I made it, 
to the classroom. 

Here I am, studying. I am undertaking one of my biggest challenges – a BA (Hons) degree. I have been sitting in various rooms, listening to people talk about their experiences. 

Then a feeling that has always been well known by me, was given a name and a whole lot of things suddenly made sense. 

I should not be here.
How did I get here,
did they make a mistake?

I am not smart enough. 
What if I fail,
what if…?

Imposter Syndrome… So many things fell into place when I heard that term. As though before it had even been briefly explained, I knew it. I had met this feeling before, I KNEW it. 

 

The philosopher Bertrand Russell wrote: “The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, and wiser people so full of doubts.”

( https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2017/sep/19/fraud-impostor-syndrome-confidence-self-esteem )