I Wished For You, Too

The years have been hard, A dullness, a dark room without any light. Hands always stretching out ahead, chasing, Everything always just out of reach. I thought of you when I needed some colour in the darkness, A flash of hope, of what I might one day find. I always had you in the back … Continue reading I Wished For You, Too

A Bad Routine

Some times things happen at the right time, without any time to prepare. Some times, these things are exactly what is needed... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LRSA4X2RGGc&feature=youtu.be

Acknowledgement​

July is always a horrid month for me and mine. Too many anniversaries bring feelings full of loss and despair for most of the month. This month, in the midst of sadness, I have moved out of my shared accommodation and into my own place. This month is bringing with it a reminder of what being … Continue reading Acknowledgement​

11 years

"But I don't understand! I don't understand how this all happens. How we go through this. I mean, I knew her, and then she's, there's just a body, and I don't understand why she just can't get back in it and not be dead anymore! It's stupid! It's mortal and stupid! And, and Xander's crying … Continue reading 11 years

4 Years

On this day. The clock stopped, It read - 16.10 Such a sudden shock to the atmosphere, It stopped time. The day before. A feeling, It was 19.15 A jolt of realisation, Calm acceptance. The happiest of days, All day until 18.00 A phone call, Devastation.

I Been Standing In The Same Place For Eighteen Years

Bestie 1: (2009) Standing in doorways was the hardest thing I could ever do at one time. All of our gatherings were either at my house with the doors closed or me on one side and you on the other. You went off to college and I stayed standing in the same place, never moving, never … Continue reading I Been Standing In The Same Place For Eighteen Years

Tell Me

Standing at the bus stop, there’s a strange hue in the air that has her tilting her head and reaching up to clean her glasses. Glasses clean and hue still present, she wanders down the street with curious intent. Turning the corner, she is approached by a couple she recognises, a couple who have been … Continue reading Tell Me

I Can’t Breathee

A photo which shows one moment, of every moment. By my side, always with me. The dreams continue. You are there. But you are dying. And then I find this picture and stumble across this song and my eyes start leaking. I miss you, so very much, I miss you. I Can't Breathe Somebody get … Continue reading I Can’t Breathee

One Day

You always told me, “One day…” Trying in vain to prepare me for these days. In the early days, I notice your hat is still there – I make a mental note to ask if I can keep it, But then in the blink of an eye – it is gone. I take your collection … Continue reading One Day