And their eyes met. The supermarket was quiet, only one or two people walking around the isles. A whole world of regret passed through the eyes of one, while years of sadness passed through the other's. As they walked by each other, shopping trolleys almost grazing, there was a whispered, "happy birthday".
July is always a horrid month for me and mine. Too many anniversaries bring feelings full of loss and despair for most of the month. This month, in the midst of sadness, I have moved out of my shared accommodation and into my own place. This month is bringing with it a reminder of what being… Continue reading Acknowledgement
You always told me, “One day…” Trying in vain to prepare me for these days. In the early days, I notice your hat is still there – I make a mental note to ask if I can keep it, But then in the blink of an eye – it is gone. I take your collection… Continue reading One Day
"I wake up every morning, get dressed and carry on with the day. Even when I don't feel like it, it's just what you do." - Grandad I was raised strong. I was always a child that held fire in her eyes and I loved it. I challenged people. I questioned life. You get up in… Continue reading I Survived
Moving does not solve all problems - I was aware of this. I had reminded myself of this everytime I saw a film where the protagonist's past followed them into their present. Moving felt like breathing. Almost like for the first time in my whole goddamn life, I could breathe easy. No more elephants sitting… Continue reading Breathe
I am sad a lot. I get asked if I am okay, several times a day. Each time my response is the same, "Yeah, just tired." There is no one thing, there is nothing. No main reason for such sadness, it just is. This year - 2018 - will be the year that I write… Continue reading New Year